June 15th, 2020 was the day I decided to change my life
I committed to myself that I was done with porn.
This led me to a ton of self reflecting and pain.
When you quit this death trap, your brain puts you through so much suffering
I remember one night it got so bad I was shaking because of how bad the urge was.
This also led me to spend countless of nights reflecting on my deepest insecurities, one of which was that I was too dumb to do anything in life.
I was always the type of guy that needed to work 3x harder than anyone else in order to get the same result.
So I always thought of myself as less than everyone, not knowing God was training me to do much more than what I had originally thought.
Another deep insecurity of mine was my lack of connection with others.
I’ve never been able to fully communicate what it is I have to say to people.
Even today I have trouble connecting with others obviously this also played a big role in my lack of success with women (Which made me only want to go to PMO even more)
Later on, I found out all these insecurities I put on myself were why I really watched porn.
Because if you think about it, if our lives were perfect, we wouldn’t need porn
In order to quit porn, we have to create a life we no longer want to escape from
We have to do a lot of self-reflecting, and attacking the insecurity head on becoming comfortable with the person God made you.
Because he made you specifically unique according to his plan for you
Why are we trying to fight that?
All these insecurities I put on myself were because I was comparing myself to other people and cared about what others thought about me.
But the day you can get over your insecurities and become comfortable with who you are is the day everything changes.
Hope this helps and if you need anymore help getting free from porn DM ME “COACH” and I’ll see how I can provide you with a plan to escape this death trap.
Hope this helps? Every word you said is exactly what I need to know. I watch porn daily & so incessantly that it’s taken control of almost every part of my life. This recurrent cycle spun way out of control years ago so even though I still try to fight it, there’s so many fears & doubts I have that sometimes I believe my soul is lost. I really want to ask for your help but my body screams against it. I think the only way is to completely cut everything off or urk myself. Even now my mind is thinking of dozens of ways & excuses not to put my hand out for aid. But no. I can & will. Pls Gianfranco…help me with this curse.
Amen… it says we are to confess our sins to one another. Some are meant to work out with God on your own… but some , can be worked out within the body. God bless you. I too was in this type of sin but God reached down his hand and touched me . Literally… God bless you
