Shared by Caroline Kingori
My Name is Mickyle James L Eshelman and it has been 3 years since I last used heroin. I lose my breath when I think of my past life and compare it to my life today. The most amazing part of my recovery did not come from a choice to stop shooting up. Abstinence from heroin was a result of something. I knew the life that I was living was wrong, but I loved to rebel. I loved the darkness and my wicked way of living. I’ve used nearly every drug under the sun. I’ve burglarized, robbed, stole cars, dealt drugs, cheated, manipulated, controlled, and bullied my way through life. I was so prideful and selfish. After 9 years of chaos and too many near death experiences, I wanted out. I had a void, an emptiness in my soul. I spent my whole life searching for ways to fill that void. I sought out relief and meaning in so many directions: drugs, sex, gambling, porn, money, and the list goes on. Of these momentary fake pleasures, none ever gave me any lasting peace or satisfaction. It seemed my void only grew bigger. I just wanted meaning in my life. Everyone around me was getting killed from overdose, I too found myself nearly dead in the hospital on several occasions. I was at the end of the road. I was tired of resisting what I knew was right and living in the way I knew was wrong.
It’s been 3 years since I last used heroin, it’s also been 3 years since I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ. Completely depleted of life, I cried out to him. I humbled myself at his feet and remorsefully repented of all of the horrible things I had done. I acknowledged my sin for what it was: disobedience to the God who gave me life. From that moment of repentance, EVERYTHING changed. My heart completely flipped upside down. My heart started to desire what is good and immediately despised evil things. I was given a positive support system and I unexpectedly found myself living in that house on Runnion Avenue full of supportive and heroin free friends, a real cornerstone of the equation.
I was once in a close partnership with the devil. I personally served him and lived a life which gave him pleasure. My soul belonged to him. I can’t be more literal and blunt about this. The devil has three simple missions: 1. Prevent souls from discovering the truth of Jesus. 2. Prevent and trip up Christians from spreading the truth and fulfilling God’s plan for them. 3. Confuse, dilute, and desecrate Gods creation. So, that’s what I did. I reeked havoc. Maybe you’ve seen my mugshot on the news. When I became a born again Christian, the blindfold was lifted and all of the devils schemes and strategies became perfectly clear to me. He tricked me to believe that he was who I needed. I was his slave. He controlled my thoughts, my dreams, my voice, and my heart. Awful thoughts, thoughts that were not my own. Horrendous nightmares beyond human description. Hatred filled my heart. That persistent voice that progressively manipulated me to do wrong was swiftly silenced because of my decision to fully, genuinely, and authentically give my life to Jesus. I put my trust in him, he silenced the voice, and I never touched heroin again.
Do not let someone’s FALSE example of Christianity form your opinion of what a true Christian is. The majority of people who call themselves Christians, are not Christians at all! There are SO many fake Christians, false converts, goats among the sheep, judgmental hypocrites! I’m not here to strong arm my perspective onto anyone and I’m certainly not promoting religion. Actually, Jesus spoke against religion. I’m NOT talking about church attendance. I’m NOT talking about rules and regulations created and enforced by humans. I Am talking about a real obtainable relationship with Jesus. I’m simply here to share my experience with the hope that people can find what I have found. DO NOT MISS OUT! Jesus is literally waiting for anyone who is willing to soften their hearts and swallow their pride (authentically). It doesn’t matter what you’ve done, he wants to forgive us for breaking the law that is written on all of our hearts. Our God given conscience tells us what is right and wrong. Think of my motives- what do I have to gain by publicly talking about the most controversial topic in history? If you know me, you know I’m an introvert that prefers to be silent and avoid conflict. I cannot be silent about this. Why did your heart start thumping the moment I mention the name of Jesus Christ? Why does the world go to such lengths to mock and criticize a man who spoke love and forgiveness? He set a moral standard that is despised because we love our sin. We love the darkness and Jesus is like a flashlight that exposes the truth within us. He lived a perfect life and was given a criminals death. If there is such an extreme effort to silence, censor, suppress, and persecute Christ and his followers, maybe that’s where the truth lives. Think about it.
To all of my friends who are involved in witchcraft and the occult, don’t worry, I’m not like “coming for you” or going to publicly expose you or something haha. Obviously I hate the god(s) you serve, but it doesn’t mean I love you any less. How could I, of all people, judge anyone?!
I know you probably hate my guts now, I understand where you’re coming from. This is not a war against flesh and blood. I found the solution to our misery. Message me, anyone, anytime.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding but always acknowledge him and he will make your path straight- Proverbs 3:5
I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength- Philippians 4:13