My testimony and the forgiveness of God

My testimony… a long read but I hope you’ll take the time to read what I’m about to share.

I felt I needed to share my testimony and what God brought me out of and forgave me for.
From the time I was 14 years old to the time I was 29 I had a serious drug and alcohol addiction, I was a thief, a playboy that was very promiscuous, addicted to porn, severely selfish and angry, a huge liar and very untrustworthy. I believed in God but didn’t care, I was going to do what I wanted. I’d befriend someone to their face but would then would steal from them monetarily or relationally. I was a terrible father and an even worse husband. All-in-all, I was a bad man.
Then one evening I was at a party drinking and snorting cocaine, when God hit me upside the head with what I call “His Holy 2x4”. He showed me how utterly lost I was, how my soul was the blackest of black and the road I was heading down was headed towards nothing but destruction and despair.
I then began to bawl, uncontrollably, like never before. A deep cry of shame and despondency.
A couple months later, September 1, 1993, I gave my heart, mind, and soul over to the Lord Jesus Christ and was baptized that evening.
I gave up the drinking almost right away and the drugs shortly after. I stopped stealing and ended the playboy life and the porn.
I’d love to say that my life from then on to today was a cake walk but I still struggled with a few things like anger and impatience. I wasn’t the best of dads and got divorced again after 23 years of marriage.
I still struggle with relationships that are not in God’s will, I still get angry and impatient, I don’t act in a Christ loving way towards people and towards those I love. But I’m getting there, getting stronger, growing in my walk with the Lord everyday.
Yes, I’m a sinful, hypocritical Christian, but I ask for forgiveness every single day and throughout every day.
God works on me all the time, in a loving, compassionate way. He disciplines me like any loving father would, but it’s nothing more than I can bear.
God forgave me for my past and continues to forgive me every single day of my life and I know He will everyday to the day that I die when I hope and pray to hear Him say “well done good and faithful servant!”


Amen, praise be to our God and lord Jesus. He can change us totally when we receive Him as our Lord. :blush:

That is truly a story of God’s saving grace. It was not a matter of your receiving Him, it was that He broke into your life and saved you despite yourself. This, I relate to very much.

Thank you for sharing your story. It helps me because there are days when I become despondent that I am still so sinful. Most people (not the saved) would look at my outsides and perhaps tell me that my addiction to cigarettes is “sinful” because the world does all but call that a mortal sin. I pray daily God would take it from me. All else I have quit. I still have trouble with my attitude. I spent many years doing things my own way, and all led to destruction too.

Praise God for your salvation, brother in Christ @kneelfighter, or Bill! So glad you shared.

IF (big if) you wish to read my testimony, it can be found here:

Amen, thank GOD,

That is wonderful to hear. It so brave of you to share your experience and journey with the Lord God despite exposing your past. Yes, change is not always easy and fast. God works on us little by little, making sure it happens the right way and in accordance to His will. I salute you for changing your dark ways and going to the path of the Lord God.

Yes, I love the spirit! It is not an easy process but having the Lord God guide us every step of the way is a plus!

Because of his unconditional love for us he died on the cross to save us from our sins. God never fails to forgive us. So we must also forgive for those who sins us.

@kneelfighter I want you to know that you’re doing great! Despite your past and sins, look at you. You gave yourself to our God. I know its not easy to change and continue doing what you started. And its okay. Things will still come your way to tempt you, threat you, poison you, betray you and test you especially your faith. But God will never let you go. He will never betray you. He wants you to draw closer to him. Trust him and his plans for you every step of the way. Your journey wont surely be an easy one, but in the end, it will surely be worth it. He will never leave you or forsake you. Be open to Him. Ask for wisdom, courage and walk in faith with him. Believe in him and believe in yourself. Someday, everything will fall into place and will make sense to you. Everything you have been through and will go through, all these has purpose you cant even see yet. Have faith my friend.

In 1 Corinthians 10:13 it says that, “No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.” Thank you for being an inspiration to all of us, @kneelfighter. You are indeed a witness of God’s love and mercy. He is faithful to the plans that he has set for us. I am praying for your continuous healing.

Hi there @kneelfighter I hope you are having a good day today!
I am deeply inspired by what you shared. You are indeed a strong person and I admire you so much. Being in a situation where you feel so broken is very hard because you don’t know what to do but you chose to stand up and give glory to God. You gave up everything and chose the Lord. Your faith was strong enough to lift you up so high that you overcome those struggles.
I pray for you and I am proud of you! God will always be here with us, guiding us. Amen.

Hello my Friend its a wonderful testimony how God works in your life God is so Good. I know this is only the begining of your walk with God He will use you as a living testimony to others people who dont know God you will inspire them in your testimony How God moves into your life. I pray to God that He will use you mightly in His kingdom Keep the fire burning brother.

Thanks for sharing, brother. It’s not that long :slight_smile:

Your life speaks of God’s power and God’s power is true! My life’s turn to God isn’t dramatic, and when I hear (or read) testimonies like that of yours, I can say that God has been preparing you for something great. Use your life’s testimony to tell people of God’s healing power!